Excitement...

Praise be to the God and Father of our Lord Jesus Christ,the Father of compassion and the God of all comfort,who comforts us in all our troubles so that we can comfort those in any trouble with the comfort we ourselves have received from God.(2 Corinthians 1:3-4)

Its been a while since I posted..maybe it was because I really didn't feel like I had anything good to say..it seems as though over the past month or so,i have felt like ive been drowning.I lost my focuse,I left myself feel defeated.And it was not a good place to be in.Im thankful for a Father who reminds me that no matter how I feel,His love is constant,and always shining on me.I thankful for His faithfulness and for His understanding.I have felt myself coming out of the "slump" over the past week.. Last week my mom was here for a few days.We had Ashers birthday party the night she came(even though his birthday isn't until the 23rd) and the next day we went to Haydens doctor appointment in Greenville with Dr Lacroix.That morning as I was getting dressed I was praying and I felt like I heard God saying "your coming out" I loved the sound of that but I had a hard time really believing it all...Well the appointment felt like confirmation to that..Dr Lacroix was so impressed as she felt like the nodes had gotten allot smaller since the last time.I was excited to hear this but not expecting much more to be said but then she asked about our deductible and when it starts over for the next year,i said January and she replied,"ok well lets leave her on antibiotics another month,come in here dec 15th and we will do blood work again and if everything is clear we will take her off.After that I still want to see you every couple of months just to make sure nothing is growing." I got tears.i literally wanted to squeeze her.

(me mom and Hayden at the doctors office)

(shes a pro at all this.getting weighed)

(time for another check up)

 Haydens scars look better every week...hopefully plastic surgery will not be necessary to fix it up at all.

When she has her hair up,its more noticeable but still able to cover it up pretty well with little strands:)

Mom was here till thrusday that week and we had such a fun and relaxing time together.My mom is just so amazing and our relationship is so very special to me.The time we had together here was so good for me.

(the kids were so sad to see her go and Asher has reminded me every day since then that hes just so sad to be missing mimi)

                                  (Mom made Hayden the most adorable little scarf)
Thursday Matt met with his Dr. and again MORE good news! Dr Kana wants to see Matt again in a month(same day as Haydens appointment:))And he thinks after that Matt can slowly start working again..He did say it will take Matt a month or two before he can work full time and he will have to be slow about doing heavy lifting.
The end is in sight,Lord willing! I find it hard to get my hopes up even so,but im trusting God..His timing is perfect
The holidays definitely have brought allot of cheer around here as well..last weekend I put up my Christmas decorations and something about that just brings sucha  cozy warm feeling(Matt would disagree since its not thanksgiving yet)  But next weekend it what were really excited about..my best friend and her husband gave us money ,over our anniversary in august,to go to a Clemson football game,instead of them buying the tickets they left it up to us which game we wanted to go to...We decided to make it  a weekend getaway and used his parents time share to get a motel and stay fri-sun. The kids are staying with Matts sisters family. I cant even tell you how excited I am about all this.Matt and I have been together 24/7 now for the past 4 months,and its had its share of trying times in our marriage.Along with many many good times as well. When we found out about Matts surgery I asked a few of my closest friends to commit to praying for our marriage over the next couple months while hes off work...especially with the stress of Haydens situation,finances,him being home all the time, the list could go on,i knew this wasn't going to be easy,it wouldn't have been easy if it was just Matts situation.My mother on law challenged me then "protect your marriage" those words have rung in my ears and im so thankful she spoke that to me. I feel like this getaway is just that,time for us to be alone,enjoying each others presence,having fun and forgetting about the rest.i am excited.We are closer then weve ever been, I feel and We have learned a ton about communicating for sure.All a part of Gods plan,i know this is true.

 So,we eagerly await December 15th,praying for continual and complete healing for Hayden and Matt and of course ,praying that 2015,which is rapidly approaching,is our best year yet.:)

Thankfulness...

Its funny how things happen through out the weeks and I think to myself "I need to put that on the blog" and now that I pulled it open to actually blog I have to go back and try to remember those things..
im going to start with the Dr appointment we had with the surgeon 2 weeks ago... I forgot that I wasn't going to be meeting with Dr Abrams but with his PE who was taking his patients while he was on vacation...she's a sweet lady but I always like speaking with
Dr Abrams more since he has been with us since the beginning and I know he knows a lot more about it all...anyways,she checked the scars and said everything looks great and that she thought were out of the woods as far as another surgery..i don't mean to sounds negative in any way,but it didn't mean a whole lot hearing that from her since Dr Lacroix is the one who knows more about the infection side of it all and is the one to make that call... The PE also said she didn't think she could really feel those other lumps Dr Lacroix felt..again..didn't get my hopes up.She did say that theres a good possibility that when Hayden gets sick, colds,flu etc that theres a good chance her nodes will swell up  again.That scared me a little because if you remember,that how all this started...a little cold,a little swelling in which the Dr's thought would all go down...but I have chosen im not going to fear that. But when we went to leave she said the most wonderful news.."this is your last appointment scheduled with us unless Dr lacroix needs her to see us again" and when i left i didn't have to schedule another one.....i could have jumped for joy!!one less dr appointment to deal with!!!
With the weather getting cold and flus etc starting I have been doing extra as far as tryin to keep her from getting sick..i use essential oils on her mostly everyday,i give her a really good pro-biotic (plexus...awesome awsome stuff!) and I also am giving her a pill to help her bowel movements(also plexus) since she seems to be getting stopped up allot.I feel really good about the stuff im giving her and feel its definitely helping.Im also taking the plexus stuff since ive been having allot of troubles with rashes on my skin over the past year...and as of right now,i have no rashes at all!PTL.
2 weeks ago I was having a really really rough week...my sister and I talked allot over that time as she would call me to check up on me..i could tell when she called that she was really asking questions trying to read me on how I was doing..which was...well,not good.I have only felt that way a few times in my life and that's after my babies are born,i have had post partum with both (worse after Hayden was born) and that's how I described it to Karen..i started just feeling so down...so burned out..so weak and just sad..something I do not normally feel!I blogged about this last time.i kept telling my sister she should come spend the weekend with me end of November since Matt decided to join his ball team and go to florida for a tournament.I really wanted him to do this,of course he couldn't play but he could be around the guys,coach and do the scorebook.But I was not excited about staying home alone with the kids,especially not with how I was feeling.Well after about a week of me just feeling so down,my sister called and said to find plane tickets to come up for 10 days and they would pay for the trip...I wasn't really into traveling again since we have been gone allot since Matts surgery but after thinking about it a bit I decided I would drive instead(flying stresses me with my 2 kids) so 4 days later the kids and I packed up and headed to Pa to stay with my sisters family.We had SUCH a good time!! My sister and her husband spoiled us.And I even go to work a day while I was there.I didn't know how much I needed that time...to be with my sisters and brothers,to be away from my husband a little,i know that sounds bad,but being together 24/7 for the past 2 months has had its challenges.We came home yesterday after being there for 10 days and I have not felt this refreshed in a while.
Today in church we sang a song ...and it hit me in a new way "oh im running to your arms,im running to your arms,the riches of you love will always be enough.." this past year I have felt things that ive never felt before...almost as though "someone" was tryin to rob me of my joy..and there have been days I feel im loosing in that battle..there have been days I just feel so incredibly week...week as in,im going to loose it..litereally im going to fall apart.there have been days I have felt anger for no reason except that im just so tired...tired of battleing...and even though God has reminded me again and again... this is just a test..God WILL be glorified ,and again and again I am reminded of Job(although my situation is nothing compared to Job)...  there are days I just feel so ungrateful..ungratefull that all this is happening,ungrateful that I have had to watch my 1 year old daughter spend more time in a hospital then I ever have.ungratefull that my normally hard working husband can not work at all right now..ungratefully that these two things had to happen over the same time...ungrateful that my happy little life that I was just living a year ago is now turned around and ungratefull that somedays I don't even recognize who I am because I am not an ungrateful kind of person....but then when we sang these words..."the riches of Your love,will ALWAYS be enough" i can't be ungratefull...Thank you Jesus that you love me...that none of this changes that fact...thank you that my little girl is getting better..thank you that this will come to an end.thank you that today as we ate out with family,someone handed my not working husband money to pay for our lunch.thank you that weve been able to take trips that have all been completely paid for !thank you that we got so much free food to put in the freezer while in pa..thank you that there is medicine to help my daughter get better,thank you that we have not had to stress about our finances.
Thankfullness always trumphs un-thankfulness.Isnt God GOOD??!!!!


I cant believe its November already!! Weve been so busy and that has been such a blessing...weve got to go to pa twice,florida once and church camping and all of those were paid for by family or friends that just decided to.THAT has been awesome.. we had our anniversary in august and didn't really get to celebrate but a very special couple gave us tickets to go to a Clemson football game end of this month,Matts parents have time share and with that we were able to get a motel and now have planned to spend the weekend there.to say we are excited is an understatement..we have not gone away for overnight without the kids since ..well im really not sure...im thinking it was when Asher was a baby.:/I think that will be soo good for us and yes...im just really excited:) My mom has decided to come see us next weekend..that was just planned as well and is giving me something to look forward to over the next week..Ashers birthday is the 23rd of this month so i think we'll try to have his party while shes here.November will be yet another busy month for us and were all ok with that:)
Hayden has a dr appointment tomorrow with Dr lacroix,although im going to try to change that in the morning to next week while moms here so we can spend the day in Greenville and since i just go home and have so much to do tomorrow. I once again and am excited to meet with Dr Lacroix,see whats changed,if anything,and see how long shes thinking for Haydens meds yet.i always have allot of questions and she always is so willing to give answers.
I challenged my sunday school class this morning to this...Put a piece of paper by your bed,and for the month of November,everyday write one thing your thankful for..has to be  something different every day.Im excited to join them in this! Whose with me?!:)