dr appointment # ????

Today is a beautiful day here in North Carolina,it feels like my favorite season...FALL. This air is putting me in such a happy mood:)And this morning I have my neice(matts sisters daughter) Mariah here helping me,i have a bunch of things I want to do while shes here,but here I sit,on my front porch with the kids sitting in front of me on the steps blowing bubbles,there plates sit here  on the little table in front of me with pieces of scrambled eggs on them. Ill get to my work ,but for now I feel, peace,contentment,happiness, and rest. And I praise my Jesus for that.for breathing new life into me this morning. Despite the constant worries that want to pop up in my head again.
Yesterday was Haydens dr appointment with the surgeon, I really didn't know what to expect with this but I had allot of questions. My friend Crystal went with me again,something I didn't have to ask of her,she just offered and It meant the world to me. The hour drive down to Greenville and back gets a little boring when its just Hayden and me,since she just sits in the back and watches miss patty cake over and over(I think I have the movie memorized) Dr Abrams was once again very pleased with how the incisions look and praise the Lord, he said that the bump were seeing he believes is scar build up. But then he also said that he still would not be surprised if he would have to go back in and get more infection out. I told him I wish he could tell me for sure yes or no about another surgery and he said "well just plan on us not doing it then if we have to it will be a surprise,but I really wouldn't be surprised at all if we'd have to go back in"  so that didn't help me much:/ another thing I asked was how will we know when its time to do another surgery and he said "the same thing will happen as it has before,it will just get bigger and bigger" he said that the rest of the infection is behind a muscle or tissue so its harder to get to.The last dreaded question I asked was "how long is this going to go on yet?when is it all over??"to which he replied "another year" ugh I think my heart sank. I don't  want to complain about the treatment there giving Hayden ,cause they are helping her and I know that what were dealing with is so minor compared to allot of people, but I keep thinking everytime the antibiotics get close to being empty "maybe this will be the last time I get it filled" cause to me it seems like soo long that shes been on them,but I guess not.
On sunday we noticed a rash on Haydens neck,not a big rash,not real red.I called her Id doctor yesterday and she wanted to see her but I couldn't get there in time so she asked me to set up an app. with Haydens pediatricion(so I don't have to drive an hour again today)I got it scheduled for today at 3:50 but I this morning her rash is looking a little better and im debating waiting another day or two to see if it goes away...ugh I hate making these decisions.
well I really do need to go get my things done before the day gets away from me.
Thank you for all the encouragement you all give us,i don't get to respond to all things people write on facebook but I cant tell you how much it means to me and picks us up..so thank you.