Haydens dr appointment

There are so many things on my mind tonight...as there has been all day. Let me start with Haydens Dr. appointment. And all the little God kisses I got today.. My nearest and dearest friend from the south went with me and Hayden this morning, thanks to another near and dear friend who arranged it and babysat for the one who was going with:)We got there a little late but still had to wait in the waiting room , while we were waiting a women,her mom and her mentally disabled son came in,they sat across from us and the boy (12 years old)started yelling "read this to me Garret read this to me" and handed his grandma a barney book, she started reading and he got all excited as did I just watching him. I sat there smiling at him and and showing his mom ,who kept telling him to quite down, that I really did not mind at all. He then looked at me and said "Hi,read this to me,read this to me" I was so excited,i have always had such a soft spot in my heart for disabled kids and I love to interact with them. I jumped down off my chair,sat on the floor in front of him and started reading him the book in the most exciting way I could,he was so happy with me and we smiled at each other and talked about the barney book.He then told his grandma to move cause he wanted me to sit next to him although that didn't last to long:).Im sure all of you are wondering what this has to do with Haydens story, but this moment today,brought out a passion of mine and it brought such a joy to my soul.   That was the first moment in the past 2 days that I felt such happiness and I wasn't thinking about our situation at all.That boy blessed me so much,and he didn't even know it.That was my first God kiss:)
We finally went back to our room and Dr Abrams came in to get the drain out. They had to cut some of Haydens hair cause it had gotten stuck on the wound and it was to difficult to pull it out. I held Hayden tight and the nurse helped me with one arm and with the other helped Dr Abrams.

                                     (trying to calm her down when it was over)
After they were done Hayden wasn't calming down real much so Crystal took her and of course Hayden calmed right down. Dr Abrams said he was very pleased with how both the inscisions are looking. Although he said he hates that she will have these scars ..

He also said that they got the pathology report from the surgery and it looks like 90 percent of the infection is out. He was very happy about that and said that means that the antibiotics are working. I asked him is he still thinks we will have to have another surgery and he said possibly not,he said hes not as certain we will have to as he was in the hospital but still we just don't know. I also asked him when we would have it if we would and he said they would like to wait at least 3 months if they can.
Im really happy about what he said today , but this infection has taking us for ride after ride, it seems as though everytime we have thought it might be coming to an end, it suddenly takes another turn for worse. Next week we don't have any appointments then the next 2 weeks after that we have one scheduled each week. So for the next week we will continue with antibiotics and keep an eye on it to see if theres any changes.
Matts consultation with his surgeon is tomorrow morning. After that we have allot of things to decide and figure out, but we got a text this morning that had me sobbing in a coffee shop line. God is providing. And we are going to be taken care of. God showed me that over and over today... Supper being brought to our door, giftcards, a new pool for our kids, my sisters text and said there going to be doing some canning for me...i have cried so much today. and i have felt such a rest...last night i felt so confused, and all i could do was praise him..i kept saying that in my head "praise him in the storm" and today, God gave me strength again to praise him. Tonight i was taking the trash over to matts parents and i opened all the windows including the sunroof,i was driving over there with the music blaring and i was singing along "Your grace finds me..." and all of a sudden i noticed it was  raining, pretty hard, i had my whipers on and i kept looking at the passenger seat to see if i should close the windows and sunroof, but i didn't see any drops on the seat, the rain got harder, but still, no drops. It was a short rain but it was hard. I was in my car, rain all around, and not one drop touched me...and this song came to me..

"Many times I cry Jesus hear my plea
Precious Savior have mercy on me
Then my faith grows stronger and I understand
That nothing can touch me that doesn't pass through His hands

Nothing can touch me
Though life's billows may roll
Nothing can touch me
For He's still in control
Nothing can touch me unless He says it can
For Nothing can touch me that doesn't pass through His hand "
 pretty awesome moment for me right there.

I was also reminded today, someone always has it worse then i do, i saw on a friends page a little girl,looked like my son Ashers age, drowned and died today. Her mom wrote a heartbreaking post on her facebook page and i sat here in tears. Thank you Lord that i still have my husband and my children. Theres always a reason to praise. Our thoughts and prayers are with the Miller family.

Tomorrow is a new day... Gods already there.