I don't feel like I have much to say right now but I wanted to give a bit of an update on Hayden..We started noticing over the weekend that between her 2 insisions on her neck ,its feeling thick again.. which in the past has not been a very good sign. This week is the first week in a while(other then when we were in pa)that I don't have any dr appointments for her and in a way I wish I did cause I would like for them to take a look at it and tell me what it means! We meet with the surgeon again next week,then the following week is Matts surgery and the week after that I meet with the ID doctor.The ID doctor is the one who makes the calls about surgery, antibiotics etc. so shes the one im eager to talk to ,however the surgeon will also give his opinion and if he thinks its looking bad he will call the ID doctor and let her know.The two of them usualy talk after the one sees Hayden.
When we started noticing the thickness around the insisions I feel like I immediately started worrying. something that is such a battle for me through all this. I wish I could say that I have mastered the one day at a time concept by now,but no, its still a struggle and today its been a hard one.I feel like I am constantly fighting a battle in my mind,theres the constant temptation to worry and stress and even fear...and as I told someone at church yesterday,i feel like I fail quite often.But oh how thankful I am for a forgiving Father who always has his arms wide open for me.And has given me a whole book full of promises.
On Friday I got a call from my sister in law and brother saying they were on their way to florida and happened to stop at our exit ,about 5 minutes later they pulled in. We quickly hugged, talked a bit hugged again and they left. It was soo good to see them but I just wanted to hug them and not let go.
Saturday morning my husband told me there was a mouse our house,anyone that knows me knows that I am petrified of mice.I couldn't think of anything else on Saturday and wore boots the hole time I was in the house. I think this may have been Gods way of getting my mind on other things:) Sunday morning Asher brought the dead mouse still in the trap,in to me and I almost went through the roof screaming.He was quite confused but I was happy to put my boots away once Matt threw the grose little rodent out.We got a good laugh anyways since Matt had videoed Asher bringing it back to me and my reaction.:)
Church yesterday was again an emotional time for us. The support and love we feel from them is just incredible. It just feels like home.Thats the best way I can explain it. We had so much life spoken into us it would have been impossible to leave there feeling discouraged.
God continues to show us He is going to take care of us... It seems as though everytime something comes up or we start to wonder how were going to get through,we get a call,a text,a letter or something reminding us He's got us in His hands,Even though it can feel so overwhelming.
Its been rainy and dreary here since Friday night but im so thankful for my sweet friend who sent me the most beautiful sunflowers on Friday,they've been lighting up my whole house and have brought me many smiles.
Thank you for your continued prayers, your support, the texts the calls all of it.We love you all.
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