"Be joyful always; pray continually; give thanks in all circumstances, for this is the will of God."1 Thesselonians 4:13
I have so much to be thankful for.I have so many reasons to be joyful. I must remind myself of that over and over.If your always looking for something to be thankful for, you wont think about the things you don't like in your life.
The meeting with Matts surgeon was yesterday morning. We had kind of a rough morning.I think all of this is taking a toll on our bodies and minds(mine especially)I felt exhausted and drained all day yesterday.Asher and Hayden both cried when we left them at grammas yesterday morning.(that never happens)We waited almost 2 hours before we saw the Dr.Talk about frustrating!!

 Dr Kana confirmed Matt does need to have surgery and he didn't want him to wait more then 2-3 months.We set it up for next Thursday(week from today.) The minute we left my mind started spinning " whose going to keep the kids the day of surgery,whose going to stay with Matt and Asher Tuesday during Haydens appointment, Matt wont be able to drive, im going to have to take him to rehab,what if that falls on the same day as Haydens dr app...." I text my mom and sisters and asked them to pray for clarity of mind as it was spinning thinking of all I had to line up and responsibilities id be having. I kept telling myself "one day at a time" and "fix your eyes on Jesus" We did decide to move the surgery to three weeks (august 7) since Matt and dad want to finish the one job there working at before Matt takes off for 3-4 months. That was one happy note,we were expecting 6 months of recovery and it sounds like hes thinking 3-4 months.not quite as bad:)
I finally went to bed at a decent time last night,I had a baby shower to go to and on the way there I had to drop off Haydens prescription to get filled,i then went to the the shower and on the way home I picked the prescription up.By the time I got home I could barely keep my eyes open I literally felt like I hadn't slept in days..although I have,but it don't help much when Ive been going to bed later then normal and my kids have been getting up earlier then normal. Momma got to remember to get her sleep:)
We have been so amazed already at the amount of support we feel.I really honestly didn't expect any of the things that people have been given us. Supper was delivered to our door again yesterday,although I saved it for tonight since I was gone last night. Sisters sent a picture of my freshly canned greenbeans awaiting me.. were just so grateful.
Hayden seems to be doing really well,other then getting up at a awful early time of the morning,crawling in bed with us ,in which we don't sleep to much since her feet or butt usualy ends up in one of our faces,this morning she was rubbing my ear in her sleep...might sooth her but certainly not me:)Shes her happy self and the wound has not been draining much as we expected it would even after the drain was out. But she loves not having her dressing on her neck. The doctor had said after surgery that she might have weakness in her left arm for a little while, from the nerve being stretched,well ptl we have not noticed any weakness and she seems to be using it as normal. It feels to me like the next week and  a half(until we see the dr again)We wont know a whole lot about her infection or whats going to be happening. We'll just keep her on her prescription ,speaking of , you know your a regular when all the pharmacists ask how Hayden is doing and ask all kinds of questions about her story:)
well I think blogging in the morning is not a good idea for me,running behind schedule and yet I feel like I could write more..but ill save it for another day.Thanks for following our story:)and for all the prayers and encouragement.We are so blessed.
Im so looking forward to getting my hair done. Having some relaxing time to myself.