Friends,laughter and health

The kids and I just got back from a week long trip to florida to visit my parents and boy did we have a blast.It was so very relaxing and full of quality time with some of my favorite peopleThe kids were beyond thrilled to see mimi and papa

We spent tim with cousins at the beach..

hung out with mummy

and did everything mimi did

.My cousin & best friend was down a week before I came and our trips overlapped by 3 days-We haven't seen each other for almost 6 months!We got to spend time together as well.You know that girl friend who just really gets you-who makes you laugh from the pit of your belly-who you can make laugh with one tiny odd little comment,who ,when you say 3 words of  a sentence she knows where your going with it or how your feeling about that situation..the one who you have so many memories with that the "inside jokes" just flow when your together,that one who no matter how long it goes since you seen or talked to each other,nothings changed and you pick up right where you left off as though you never missed a beat.The one who your heart breaks when she goes through tough times and all you want to do is pick her up,take her out for the evening and just laugh together cause you know she just needs that.The one who ,you could go to a coffee shop and order her favorite drink without asking what that drink is...that one..thats my Tonya.

We spent the evening together wedneday ,taking our kids for ice cream and talking as fast and as much as we could to fill up the night and when it was over we still had so much to say...Thursday we went out with our moms ,my 2 kids and her oldest,We ate sushi,cause that's our favorite and a tradition we started a few years ago for each others birthdays,instead of gifts we treat each other to sushi.We giggled at our moms being so cool,

we laughed as we asked for the kids style chopped sticks for our kids and then some for ourselves as well,

we sent pictures to our sisters to make them jealous and show them what a great time we were having,we smiled with pure delight as we watched our kids interact with each other cause that's what we always dreamed of,them being best friends like we are.

Then we headed out and went to her moms(my aunts) house to let the kids swim in the pool.We spent the 2 hours there just laughing,laughing at our kids at our moms but mostly at ourselves:)Shes pregnant and having the baby in may so we watched her tummy in hopes that the baby would kick while the kids were watching,i made funny comments and she giggled that laugh that just egged me on to make more funny comments while our moms were taking videos and pictures of us laughing together. Mom and I took the kids home for naps and later went back over to eat supper with them.And have even more fun.It was such a good day...when tryin to tell my husband about it all I could say was just that I was just so happy but I think more then anything,being with her and our moms,and havnig the fun we had,just made me forget all the rest of the stuff that was going on around me...

After I posted my last post about what the surgeon said,i assumed his word was golden.That the scab was nothing to do with the infection. I had to call the Id doctor to ask about Haydens meds,i assumed since he said the scab was not infection that that meant Hayden could come off her meds cause the reason she was still on the meds was because of the scab.Well when I called the Id doctor she said Hayden could come off the one med but she wants her to finish out the other when I asked why she said she doesn't think she agrees with the surgeon about the scab,she thinks the scab is residual therefore she doesn't feel comfortable taking her off the meds completely.While in florida Haydens meds were just about gone so again I assumed since she said finish it out that after this bottle we'd be done.But then I realized I still have like 6 refills on the bottle..so I called in again to ask if she meant finish out the bottle I have or finish out the refills...and she said she wants her to stay on it until she see's her again in april.I keep praying that God will help me just to roll with this..to not let any of it sting.But it just does..everytime they say "a little longer" its like another kick.A few weekends ago we went to myrtle beach for the weekend with Matts ball team and I forgot Haydens meds(a first) so for 3 days she went without and she was a bear..it was as though her body was going through withdraw.I kept thinking im imagining,but after talking to a few people and them saying things like well shes on drugs what do you expect?!
In florida Hayden got sun and for some reason when ever she gets sun(since being on meds) she gets bumps all over her skin.This time it was on her face and neck.So I was researching her meds for the millionth time trying to figure out if its the meds or something else causing it..
I sit here day after day thinking "Ok God give me wisdom,help me not to worry I give this to you.."but like any thing we deal with in life it is a constant giving up..Its reminding yourself,this is not for me to carry,even though as a mom I feel like it is..
Last night we had a church and they talked about going through the fire and you know what? I got excited..cause I feel like we've been walking through a fire, and its been a year now,how much is God going to use this,us?! He has to have something big in mind.OH father bring the fire!! REFINE ME!!One thing this has taught me is I am so far from perfect,there is soo much work to be done on me. As we sang last night
 "Refiners fire,my hearts one desire is to be Holy,set apart for you Lord"  I couldn't say it better myself,Lord I want to be holy!