..And i will call upon your name, and keep my eyes above the waves.When oceans rise my soul will rest in your embrace..For I am YOURS and YOU are mine.
Those words have hit me hard the past week. I just have to blog about the prayers God has been answering...The way He is moving so evidently in our lives! God is so good!
Last week I was having such a rough week. I had to re-fill Haydens meds..again. I cant explain to you the the dark cloud that I feel follows me into the pharmacy everytime I go.Ive gotten to know the pharmacists in there and they always ask how she's doing,what are the doctors saying by now..and its always the same thing.. oh just same old you know.And then she rings me up, Her meds aren't that exspensive and God has always provided for us in that,and for that im grateful..anyways ,last week.(me and my bunny trails) We've been talking about moving ,for a while now,but we'd really like to do that by next year..we have work to do on our house before we can sell so we are constanly trying to figure out how we can do this,when we should do that..and for me that stresses me a bit.Ok kinda allot.It looks sooo huge to me and when I think of all we have to do I feel like ill just drown. Thursday night on the way home from revival meetings at our church,our vehichle started acting weird and we could barely make it home.So Friday the mechanic took it in thinkin it was just a pipe that needed to be changed,We borrowed our brother in laws van till ours was fixed.Friday I sat down to have my devotions,a very tired,stressed me. And I started praying,crying out to God to please take some of this load off. In the middle of my prayer I just stopped and said "God do you even hear me ?!" And that was that.Saturday evening Matt was going to church and couldn't find his wallet...he searched frantically but it didn't turn up..so he went off to church hopeing I would find it while he was gone.When he got home is said I I hadn't found it so he kept looking and then informed me that we are now driving his parents old car because the van over heated on the way home:( When we went to bed Saturday night I just prayed that God would tell us where to look for his wallet and help us find it..then sunday rolled around..God knew I needed sunday. I got to sing on the worship team and that's when I sang oceons and right after that we sang how great is out God..and as I stood there singing I couldn't help but just feel overwhelmed with love and gratefulness for my savior.. Even when I feel He don't hear me,i know he does..i know He loves me I know HE cares..And then the pastor spoke something over me..he came right to my row,said my name and spoke "God hears you,he hears your hearts cry and he captures your tears...Keep pressing in." I sat there sobbing.What more confirmation do I need..sure ive been praying for healing for a year sure ive been praying about our finances constantly..but God...God hears it all..even though I am not seeing results right now.God hears.We got home from church and Matt found his wallet ,in the oddest place.But he said he just "felt" like he should look there. say what??!THATS GOD! Monday we found out our cars transmition is whats wrong..we were overwhelmed for about a minute..the peace of God flooded me ...and my husband spoke something so amazing as I looked at him with tears he said .."its not our car,its not our money.We do not have to worry about this."(and now im crying again..isn't that amazing?!!)and I didn't.We figured up a plan to pay off the car and on Tuesday we started talking about a way to add on to our house instead of sell it..i don't know if we will for sure do that or not,but ive noticed something since we talked about that option...I do not feel overwhelmed and then I realized..God is lifting my load.He knew the things that were making me feel even more crazy then just Haydens situation..and he lifted it.He knew he very thought of moving stressed me out..so he put that thought on hold. Wednesday I was going away and I couldn't find my phone,i was just ready to leave without it when I remembered I don't know how to get to this place and I need my phone to find out...so I walked back in my house and just said "God where is it?!" and again I felt like I should look in a pretty weird spot...there it was.And all I could say was thank you Jesus.not just for my phone..but for all He is doing!!
Isnt God good?!
Heres the topper...yesterday I was reading a book I just got and the challenge in it was to write out a list of things cause anxiety worry and fear in our lives..and I wrote out the most honest prayer ,so honest I almost felt guilty for it..but I wrote about our car and I just asked God "would you take care of this"I didn't know how that would look but that's all I asked. This morning, we got a call saying someone has donated money to help pay for our vehicle. Sometimes when God answers prayers like that I feel like I cant pick my jaw up from off the floor. So this morning i'm just dragging my jaw around:) I shouldn't be surprised.I shouldn't even be phased...but if I were God,i sure would enjoy seeing the looks on my kids faces after I did something like that:) How GREAT is our GOD!!
As for Hayden-nothing new ,the scabs still there. Some days it comes off but then it reforms a day or two later.So I find it hard to get my hopes up when its not there.We go see the doctor again middle of april.And I will keep you all posted on that.Please keep praying for her..i feel like a broken record saying that,but one of these days,these prayers will all be answered and she will be completely healthy and med-free!Be encouraged today!!
one more thing.i know this post is super long so if your still reading props to you:)I write it all out so one day I can look back on it all :) BUT-if you are going through a rough time.do yourself a favor and listen to our sermon at church this past sunday...I cant begin to tell you how it spoke to me. you can even see me singing:)heres the link:)
http://hisfcc.com/index.php?p=1_10_Sermons
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