Over the weekend Matt slept allot,his pain meds were making him really jittery yet tired all at once.so he had a hard time sleeping at night yet felt so drousy during the day.We changed them on Monday and since then he seems much more alert and himself. He goes to the dr on Friday to start therapy and get more directions on what he can and cant do with the sling on.Its been interesting so far...him not being able to help much.Bless his heart,he has helped in every area that he can and the kids have been so great with giving daddy his quite time and not jumping all over him.
Friday was also the day I had an appointment for Hayden with the ID doctor.I changed that the day of matts surgery since I found out Matt would have an appointment then and now Haydens dr appointment is Monday. Weird to say ,but im excited about meeting with Dr Lacroix again! We haven't seen her since the day before surgery and I feel like we have so much to discuss, like Haydens meds(we changed them last week since the one wasn't helping anything according to lab results),Im eager to see what she will say about how Haydens neck is looking.So far im not seeing any lumps,other then that place that Dr Abrams had said he thought was scar build up. And just ask her if she thinks we'l need another surgery.Dr Abrams ,the surgeon , thinks she wil but I have not heard dr lacroixs opinion yet.Last week(Matts surgery week) I had to re-adjust my mind.Knowing Matts surgery was that week,i couldn't think about Hayden and what was going on with her. Now that Matts surgery is behind us, he now has appointments with therapy etc that I have to take him to since he cant drive for 6 weeks.And then Hayden has appointments at least every other week.On top of that I have prescriptions that seem to be being filled constantly(I have one waiting to be picked up ,but im using every last drop of the last one before I will force myself to drive to the pharmacy to get it) But I feel ok about all this..i feel...peace.(something I lacked last week)Ive been so challenged in all this....with accepting the peace that God gives. What were walking through right now is so far, the hardest thing we've gone through since Matt and I have been together.Ive never questioned what God is doing like I have with this.But yet when I accept His peace...I stop questioning...
"Peace is not the assurance that what God is doing is easiest, nor is it the assurance that what God is doing is fastest.
Peace is the calm assurance that what God is doing is best.'
-a friend of mine sent me a devotional link the other day..and these words stuck out to me and shot me right between the eyes...last week I struggled feeling at peace...but reading this...made it so clear to me..so easy.And now ive been trying to find little ways that this,what were going through,is God doing what is best... moments like yesterday sitting next to my husband at 830 am reading devotions together and then all of us holding hands and praying...that made me think " maybe this really is whats best."
I want to write about my little Asher for a bit... Hes been such a big guy through all this..being shuffled here and there through the surgeries and hospital stays..and yet he seems fine with it. He a people person and loves to be with his friends so I don't think he minds it to much although I hate it for him.He looks out for Hayden and now,his daddy to. And since Matts surgery,he is learning and doing so many new things on his own. Taking daddy water and pills,emptying the trash,clearing off the supper table,and even learning to bath himself(ok so im a bit of a clean freak when it comes to bath..so him "bathing himself" means I go after him and do it again) he is so caring to Hayden, and has been helping me put her to bed at night and pray with her.He says the Lords prayer to her before she goes to bed. He also gets to sleep in my room with me since Matt cant sleep in a bed,and sleeping in our room..well that's reward enough for him.He loves it! Im so proud of him and I can already see this teaching him to be a little man:)
Tonight Hayden and I were having some one on one time while Asher was back in the room with Matt watching TV. I asked Hayden if shes ready to go to the dr again to which she quickly replied "No!" I asked her(just to see if she even knew) what the doctor does to her ...she pulled back her hair,touched her neck and said "owie" .Im not sure why this shocked me,probably because shes not even two yet (although she will be next month!)and she knows more about doctors then Asher even does.Sweet girl.
We are so blessed,by the friends we have,the church we have,the family...Its just so amazing how many people care about us ...and its so humbleing.
I cannot say thank you enough to everyone who has brought us meals and goodies over the past week,i haven't had to cook yet since Matts surgery and that's been great since im still trying to figure out our new routine with having Matt layed up.
I wanted to do something,to make some money and to give Matt and I a little something to do together at home so I decided to make rock candy.I had made this before and sold it on facebook,but last time I didn't ship any(since I live in Pa and over half of my facebook friends are from the north)but this time I decided I would..I posted it this afternoon and let me say,i was not expecting the response I got!! Ive already got 75 + bags ordered!Im excited about doing it.A little nervous as im not sure how long it will take me nor how much stuff ill need but im excited...to be able to do something without having to leave the kids and Matt.So thank you if you ordered some, and hopefully it wont take me too long to get it out to you!:) Btw, if your reading this and are not on facebook and would like to order some you are welcome to ,just email me at- onymullet@gmail.com . there $4.00 a bag plus shipping if you need it shipped. And if your in a hurry for it,well you might not want to order,im expecting at least 2 weeks before I have everything ready to send out.:)
Time to go to bed...thanks for reading:)
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